How can I even start this post?
There's so many things I wanna say, but most of all I want to explain how goddamn proud of you I am.
I wish I'd have said this instead of reacting so badly, and I'm sorry for that. I always put my defensive up when I think I'm even gonna have to seem vulnerable. It's stupid I know, but it's what I've always done in almost every situation like this.
I want you to see yourself how I see you, the funny, caring, smart, handsome guy that you are. I'm so proud to even be able to call you my bestfriend, you irritate me so much but honestly I wouldn't change you even if I could.
You make me smile when I don't wanna, you make me cry with happiness and quite honestly I don't know where I'd be if you weren't around.
You've been there for highs and lows, good and bad times.. in all the time we've known each other we've only gone 11 days without speaking and the 4 days are recently..
You make me feel different even if we're only hanging out, you can be my biggest supporter and my biggest fan sometimes and I'd honestly never change that about you.
We bonded because we practically hated the same things and we liked drinking so that's what we'd do, we'd rant and drink and I absolutely loved it.
I remember the night we first met, I'd messaged you at about 10pm asking if you FINALLY wanted to meet and at about 11pm you came.
We had probably the most awkward first hug but I knew when we sat in your car just talking that you'll forever be some part of my life.
We stayed talking and from the first day we started talking we've been talking ever since and we kinda became inseparable.
We've gone ghost hunting in Thetford Forrest, we've been to so many beaches but our fav of all the beaches we've been to is Weybourne.
The amount of times, you me and Jade went there is ridiculous but it made me so goddamn happy you don't even know.
I appreciate everything you've done for me way more than you realise..
You're a special kinda guy so please never ever let anybody treat you like you're average because you're so so far from that.
I love you peanut,