Thursday, 15 December 2016

RELATIONSHIPS!

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a couple days, I've been ridiculously busy but I have a crazy amount of posts coming up in the next few days so please keep an eye out for that!

As you can tell by the title I'm writing about relationships, it's something I'm highly opinionated on so yeah, lets get to it..

 I'm not someone that can have short term relationships, I always go into a relationship thinking ''Yeah, he's gonna be the man I marry, blah blah blah.'' However it doesn't end that way. Since writing this entire blog for alot of it I have only wrote about being with one person. I wrote way too much about him and then because of that I had to write about when we ended too, you all know how fucking hard that was for me because I was literally heartbroken.
BUT, I've come to realise that I have to focus on myself more than I did.. I have to really look after myself because I can get really stuck in a negative mindset, it affects my anxiety so so badly if I do.

I'm not really interested in someone just being occasionally in my life, I've got to the point where I'm if I'm not interested in you as anything more than friends I'd just be upfront about it really.
I'm not into no childish shit like I don't play games in relationships, quite frankly there isn't any point in it because at the end of the day somebody is always going to get to hurt.

To be honest, I'm just at the point where right now whatever happens relationship wise or not I'm just happy. I'm truly allowing myself to be happy and I'm so so grateful for the people around me that have helped me with that too..
In one of my last posts I wrote how alot of things would change on my birthday and so so so many things did!! I didn't see who I thought I would but that was probably the best thing really for me, I've had the pleasure of being able to speak to so many awesome people and the things that once broke me I'm kinda glad they did because otherwise I'd never have met the people I have and I'm pretty lucky for that.

The next few posts are going to up very shortly so watch out for that,

thanks for reading!!