What does success mean to you?
You have a great career which you love? You're earning alota money doing something you love?
Successful to me means being able to get up outta bed every day when all I wanna do is hide under my duvet and never come out. When the world keeps knocking you down and you get up and keep fighting for yourself.
I've had so many opportunities to give up on myself and everything I love, and I'll be honest I was going to just give up on everything until I had this one voice in my head telling me 'Just keep going, you're better than this.' and I thought fuck this, I don't give up.
Successful to me means being able to continue to smile when you feel like crying, to continue to help people even when you're struggling. There was a point in my life that I refused to go into high school, I wouldn't go out unless it was to the doctors or the hospital, I'd barely even leave my room so the progress I've made from that to now is incredible.
For everyone that feels like they just wanna be successful, I genuinely wholeheartedly believe YOU ARE. To still be continuing to progress after life has thrown absolutely everything at you, that just shows you're so so much stronger than you believe.
If you'd have asked me a month after I started writing this blog if I'd still be here writing almost a year later, I'd be like fuck no. Absolutely not. But just writing this blog helps me just as much a I hope it helps you, it feels so good to be able to write about the things that continually go round and round in my head.
I always believed that I'd always be this person that was always analyzing everything about food, yet here I am a couple years later and I'm slowly becoming less bothered about what I eat. When I do have bad days I'll scrutinize myself and wish I looked completely different but one thing YOU always no matter have to remember is that YOU are special, no matter how shitty your day is or no matter how bad you're feeling you're fucking beautiful and if you look in the mirror and tell yourself this..
'I AM BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME AF'
'I AM FUCKING EPIC'
'I AM GREAT, AND I'M MOST DEFINITELY WORTH IT'
Then slowly you'll start to believe it, like if you could speak to yourself when you were little would you say to that little girl or boy that they're fat, ugly, whatever? No...?
Then don't say it to yourself because you're hurting yourself more than you realise, once you get it into your head that you ARE the bomb then you'll feel it and I can promise you that everybody around you will notice a change on the outside too.
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