Thursday, 11 February 2016

#21.

Relationships with family or friends or even with a boyfriend or girlfriend.. they don't last forever.

Nothing is forever, everyone says you should think about your future but I've got a tendency to just think about the now, because no one knows how long you've got in this life. That's why I always just go with it, no one controls my future or now but me so I wanted to just go with it and practically live happily ever after.. yeah that shit doesn't work, so honestly loves I'm done.

I'm done trying to create a bomb ass future with someone I love, I'm done tryna explain myself to everyone because they don't deserve it at all. I'm done having rants at someone for them to still not fucking understand what I'm saying.

Lovelies there's so many negative influences out there that can literally bring you right back to square one but you've really just got to move past that, you're ALL strong, no matter how weak you feel.. like right now I feel like absolute shit but I know that I don't need anyone but myself and if I'm ever in a situation where it feels like I have compete against other people for ONE person's attention, I'm just going to leave.
No matter how hard it is, I'm going to leave because you should never ever feel like you have to compete against other people, you're perfect baby. Inside and out, just because some jackass doesn't see that that doesn't mean you aren't.. it just means their just dickheads. Which you definitely don't need.

Realise your potential boo.

Ox.

#20.

I'm not obligated to wait around til the times right. I'm not obligated to stay around til you make your mind up either..

It's so hard when you want one thing to happen and the other doesn't but does that mean I should stick around til they decide they actually want me in their life forever? Nah, you're waiting around for them to decide and actually make you number 1 someone else you actually doesn't take you for granted is gonna be there. The person you were with or are currently will see that some next man is trying to get your attention, so he makes you his priority, if you aren't happy then neither is he. He actually shows he cares rather than not wanting to show because its 'embarrassing' is it though? Showing your girlfriend you love her and want to make her your number 1 or your only one isn't embarrassing or even humiliating, put it this way.. your girl she tells you she loves you. she tells you to be safe when you go out, she takes an interest in things your passionate about.
 But what does she get for it?!

She gets mixed feelings from a guy, he makes her feel one way then his actions fuck with her head. But most importantly, she realises that she doesn't deserve mixed signals from a guy who doesn't know if he's coming or going.. She deserves love, respect and honesty and what does she get? A broken heart.

One thing I hate so much in relationships is half assin shit. A hug for example, I want a proper squeeze me til I pop kinda thing not some one armed shoulder pop like I'm one of your homies.
In relationships you've got to know your self worth, and who knows.. maybe I've just found mine..

Ox.