It's 04:58am on a Thursday morning. I got woken up by a nightmare I had, I know my last blog post was very positive and happy.. yet I still have nightmares of all of this. I have nightmares that the people closest to me are gonna leave. I don't think I'd be able to deal with that.
After alot of thinking and overthinking I've decided to stop posting. Obviously I'm going to leave all my other posts up but I'm taking a break from it, I feel like right now I'm abit lost and I don't think it would be right to keep telling all of you to be positive an shit when I'm not, I feel like it also isn't going to help anybody if I just kept posting about how crappy I'm feeling.
I'll keep checking just in case anyone wants to talk.
Good luck with everything and I may be back in a few months. Keep well and keep strong.
Keep fighting boo.